Overcoming Fear & Embracing Clarity

When I was little, I burnt a black hole in my carpet (hanging a lamp too close while drawing on the floor). We moved the bed over it, and I spent the next several years terrified that a monster lived under there.

I was also afraid of the basement, the dark, dying, being alone, laughed at, found out, looking stupid, Mrs. Finley, making a mistake, people hating me, and most of all, that I was fundamentally unlovable. 

Most of all, I've been afraid of being seen and simultaneously of being irrelevant (It's like slamming your foot on the gas while yanking the emergency break).  

For years, I lacked clarity - what did I want to do? What is my message? Why do I feel like something is missing? What do I feel like eating?

It makes sense because being clear about and in yourself risks separation from others. It risks being on an island alone.

In today's day in age, that's some scary sh*t, but from an evolutionary standpoint, that's nothing short of death. 

Well, I found clarity: it's all about overcoming fear. Check out the Monday Muse from December 2, 2024 for more on this.